Shoot-out at the Creative Corral. Muse versus Lizard Brain.

My Muse dons her cowboy garb to battle the Lizard Brain. Reptile image from Mortal Kombat game via Wikia

You know the Muse. She's the one who sends messages from your subconscious about what's best for your creative development.

She wants you to be Great.

(Mine often dresses like a Faery Queen and flies about, but she's also been known to don a cowboy hat and spurs.)

The Lizard Brain. He's a different species all together. He crawls in his belly in the muddy mire of mediocrity and tries to drag your creative soul down there with him.

​His message is Fear.

​When we feel Resistance to creating our art, it can be confusing to figure out just whose voice is calling.

Don't shoot the Muse

Take my experience with a piece of work called, ironically, Don't Shoot the Muse.

I began it during a Home Art Retreat Weekend but it grew too big to finish in such a short timeframe. I desultorily started and stopped the piece a few times afterwards. But it always felt like a chore.

Then I suddenly got it into my head to finish the Muse. 

Nothing wrong with that you say. Except that I was right in the middle of clearing out my studio ready for downsizing and nomadic wandering. And I was also coming up to a set of heavy deadlines, 

So the day after finishing a previous project, I dutifully picked up my paintbrush. That's what you're supposedly to do, right? Get straight back on the horse.

The first couple of days weren't too bad.

But each day got harder.

I kept rearranging my schedule to put off going to the studio. When I did get myself there, it was like pulling teeth.

I'd hit Resistance with a capital R.
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Using Tried and Tested Strategies to Beat Resistance

I thought,
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"Aha! It's the Lizard Brain creating Resistance because the piece is challenging and has the potential to move me forward on my creative trajectory.
​In other words, I'm afraid!"

 
I was not about to be fooled into ignoring the Muse's Call to Greatness. I just needed to figure out what exactly about the piece was causing the fear - and hence the Resistance. Then I'd be able to find a way round or through it and finish the job.

I tried my usually-effective strategies for unblocking myself.

With each one I dragged myself forward a few more inches. But each day I felt more reptilian.

Nothing like a Faery Queen in fact. Or a cowgirl.

​It wouldn't have surprised me if I'd woken up covered with scales.

Finally I began to wonder if the voice I was hearing wasn't the Lizard Brain's at all. 

Could it be the Muse telling me that this piece is not the way to go?
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Listening to the whisper of the Muse

I listened harder. I strained to hear my Muse. She whispered,
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"You know you're only trying to complete this piece because you think you should."
"And because an artist friend admired it."
"And every time you work on it, it reminds you of a time in your past that it isn't healthy or useful for you to remember right now."

Touching the Sky. © Cherry Jeffs 2008
90 x 60 cm, Mixed media on MDF.
The Muse is ready to spread her wings and fly. But the Lizard Brain - represented by the skeleton - tries to drag her back into the mud.

Bingo! My behaviour fits right in with number five of the 7 Triggers of Creative Block Depression and low self-confidence due to... 
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"...lack of passion towards our art because deep down it’s not the work we want to make, but external pressures or misguided logic make us feel obliged to do it."

​I realised the Call to Greatness was best answered by ditching the work and getting on with something that makes my heart sing. 

I'm out of the mire.
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Who's voice are you listening to?

​ Are you doing the work you really love? Or something you think you should?

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